....and all that jazZ

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

What can I say. I am like this only.

Emptiness is also a mood. Sometimes. Like there is nothing inside you. No thoughts. No emotions. Like the vast skies are inside you.

The more I see pink the more I like it. Blue is my favourite colour but I am going through a pink phase.

How would I know it if you did'nt show me ? What I see or feel is what exists. The rest is left to my imagination.

Dancing with a partner is nothing short of a relationship. A few things my instructor tells me

"Dont ever let go from here."
"I'm here, don't worry.I wont let you fall"
"Trust me."

:-) :-)

Friday, May 21, 2004

When the ghosts caught up with me .....

Milli : Its been a long time Ragini. Where have you been ?
Me : Oh I've been here and there. Around mostly. How about you ?
Milli : We are going home next weekend. So awfully tied up with packing and stuff.
Me : Oh, wow, for how long ?
Milli : Forever ! I am going home.
Me : Oh, wow !

Milli : Hows V?
Me : Good. He lives and works in UK now.
Milli : When is he getting married ?
Me : I don't know. I got bored asking.

Chitty : Raga, its been so long. I have missed you guys.
Me : Where have u been ? What have you been up to ?
Chitty : I have a year old baby. Ishaan.

Vivek : Ragz, its been quite a while. How are you keeping ?
Me : Not too bad. Whats new with you ?
Vivek : I am moving to Switzerland in June. They offered me a job there.
Me : Nice. Congratulations.
Vivek : Now you have an address there. You must come.
Me : I will :-)

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Its a different blue. Its solemn and deep. Dark clouds block out the sun. The eastern wind swishes and swashes. Green leaves tremble and sway to the tune os the wind. Drop by drop it falls until its a deluge. Monsoon is here. The sky roars and the winds shriek like a banshee. Lightning tears the day. Without a warning the winds stop their dance. The clouds slowly move away. The sun shines again. Its a different blue now. Bright and clear. Monsoon was here.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Happy Birthday to Me !!

25 years. Didnt quite realise that soo many years have gone by. I realise that I still have long ways to go, places to see, people to meet, friends to keep, things to do.
25 years. Of loving childhood memories, of growing up, finishing college, moving out. *Blink*

It was just another day yesterday. Its just another day today. But my phone does'nt stop ringing. And it reminds me that today is special because of you. Because you love me so.

Thank you all for making these years just as I have wanted it to be.

Friday, May 07, 2004

To nobody. To somebody.
I write a lettter. I pour my heart out. I cry and rave and rant.
To nobody who is somebody.
To somebody who is nobody.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

I saw a very beautiful movie last night. No Man's Land. Based in war torn Bosnia of 1993 its tells a story I would have loved to have written. About the absurdity of war and its situations. For some strange reason I thought of Catch 22, a war satire I never managed to finish because I didnt not think it was funny beyond a point. A line from the movie that echoes my sentiment perfectly.

" Neutrality does not exist in the face of murder. Doing nothing to stop it is, in fact, choosing. It is not being neutral."

Monday, May 03, 2004

Weather : Warm, bordering Hot actually.
Mind : Happy ! Weeks started out on a good note. Havent accomplished much since morning.
Heart : Content.
Body : Full of energy. Cant wait to spend it on step aerobics in the evening.
Mood : Upbeat and Optimistic.
Reading : A whole bunch of books. Far From The Madding Crowd leading the way.

And how u doin' ???