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Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Whats right and whats wrong ? Who am I to judge ? They killed the Hamas leader. And I said "How sad. Now hundreds more will be killed because revenge will be taken". Somebody took offense to that. Said he deserved to die. Where does violence begin and how does it end. All in itself. They killed the demon they knew. But how do they know that ten more wont rise to the cause in his place? When has a war ever brought about good? They say in the long run war is the only way to peace. Transient and a false sense of security I say. By human nature we are shackled to discontent. And tend to destruction. I have lost my sense of good and bad. Patriotism and words like that are ruining my mind. Jingoistic chants telling me why I should water the earth with blood. Leave me alone. Let me be a wave in the ocean. Let me be the rustling leaf. Let me be the dew on the petal. Let me be !

Monday, March 15, 2004

I cleaned out my closet. I am loathe to discarding things that have any sentiment attached to it. To me its like discarding the sentiment. And those few things are remnants of days that were. Things that were said and what I felt. And I will keep them. Like this teeny weeny Cotton World skirt I will never fit into again :-) ! Like this sarong that Shruti and I paid 120 Rs a piece after 1 hour of bargaining at Colaba Causeway. Heck I still have the sweater Mami gave me in 9th Std !!
Do you have any life goals he asks me. I think for a sec and say None. What are life goals by the way? Like I wanted to get married and have kid(s) and wanted to be making a certain amount by the time I was 30, he says. No, I have none like that I say. So you just want to take life as it comes ? Yeah pretty much.
The more I think about it the more convinced I am that I dont have a life goal. Not that I need one or ought to have one.. I just dont have one and I am alright with being that way. Odd !! Or maybe not.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

So many things. It feels like summer is here. Wake up one morning and the sun is shining bright and its warm. Time to bring out those pretty cotton pastels. The warmth brings a cheer to the spirit. Have tulips in my living room and sunlight streaming in through the windows.
We always complain about the place we live. It was too crowded and polluted there. Its empty and lifeless here. People are too nosy there. Society is restrictive. People couldnt care less here. We live an isolated lifestyle. I no more have friends there. I dont have family here. Too much corruption there. No spice in life here. No place is perfect. The worlds we build around us have to keep us happy and content. Thats about it. All you need is love....love is all you need :-) !

Friday, March 05, 2004

Pretty in Pink. Pink like the blushing rose. Baby pink.
Fresh flowers. New love. Soft and tender is pink. Satin bows.
Candy floss. Innocence is pink.

Pink is my mood today :-)

Thursday, March 04, 2004

"Princess" she quips.

"Princess" she quips. Some people tell me I act as pricey. "I can imagine, you act like you own the world" he says jokingly. They say I am too caught up in my own world. They say I am spoilt rotten mommy ! I can say but one thing to them " Too bad you are not !!" :-) :-) !

Monday, March 01, 2004

".........a lovestruck romeo sings the streets a serenade
laying everybody low with a lovesong that he made
finds a streetlight steps out of the shade
says something like you and me babe how about it?................"

:-) :-)

".........well you can fall for chains of silver you can fall for chains of gold
you can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
you promised me everything you promised me thick and thin
now you just say oh romeo yeah you know I used to have a scene with him.........."

:-) :-) :-):-)

Heard this song after a really long time today and it just fits whats been running in my mind. College gang egroup has suddenly gotten active. People getting married all around. And a lot have kept promises they made. And a lot have grown up and moved on. And everyone lives happily ever after :-)

Things and people that meant the whole world at some point seem frivolous at a future time. Isn't that just soo cruel. As the years fade out so do some memories to make room for other ones being created every living moment.