Love Actually ....

Ordinary fare as a movie. Even cheesy at the end. But just a few things that struck me anyways.
How much I love christmas and the holiday spirit. And how it makes the heart glow. The warmth it spreads in the chill of the season. How beautiful red, green and gold look against silvery white. And how I'd love to get a Christmas present :).

The countdown has begun. Exactly 4 weeks to Christmas. Just 4 weeks to NYC. And 4 weeks to home. : ) : ) !!!!!

How Bizarre.......

It feels like Friday. I have reminded myself a million times over that its Thursday.. but it still feels like Friday. So how does Friday feel ? It feels like today :).

I have a butterflies in my stomach...I dont know why...I smile all the time ever since I got back from Austin....its like something is about to happen.. almost... but not quite.

I am looking forward to not having anyone around on thanksgiving. I can change my mind about Sequoia but I dont feel like.... I dont like being alone.. but right now, I want to.

If i could follow
the clouds, where would I go ?
If i could see
beyond the ocean, what would it be ?
If i could sing
to call over the seasons, whom would it bring ?
I dont know.
But I watch the clouds as the pass
But I gaze at the ocean as far as I can see
And I let the wind sing my song.

Hello Austin

It was nice meeting you. But no, it wasnt love at first sight. In fact far from it. The vast flat grounds dont tug at my heart strings. The blues dont hold me back. And 6th street.... Oh Okay !. The burnt orange of UT is inspiring but I really cant go back to school, yet.

I am sorry Austin, its not you its me. :( :)

Yes but the people make the place. I still had a swinging time. Anyplace that brings me to people I love is special. Meeting old friends is a pleasure that is never dampened by the place. We could have met in Timbaktoo and it would have rocked ! :) Wassay ???

Do you ever wonder ?

I wonder how, I wonder why
Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree
la... la la lala lala la......

-- Fool's Garden

And I wonder wonder.... Offlate thats what I have been doing. The year is drawing to an end and i look over my shoulder to see how many of the promises I made to myself I have kept. Of how life just keeps going on. Of what I have wanted and what life gave me. Of what I made of it. Of what I can make of it. I wonder if it could have been any different. I wonder if it still can.

And I wonder about what they tell me. And what I hear. And what I feel. And I wonder what it will be... and I wish I didnt just wonder so much.

"I am turning my head up and down
Turn Turn Turning Turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree... and I wonder"

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee-high
So won't you try to come..............................

Norah Jones

Sunday afternoon.. waiting for a simulation to finish... And all I want right now... is to go away somewhere... Somewhere into the mountains. Where from its cliff I can watch the waves crashing below.. and the sky change colours.

So wont someone write me a song and ask me to come away............????

Is there anything more cruel than a wait ? That anxiousness. The unsettling uncertain fluctuations in the head. What if... what then.... ? The million questions and the billion answers. time can be so cruel.