And then it rained.

Appa, on August 2nd we had a party to celebrate Akash's 4th birthday. What is a celebration without you though appa ? I don't even know what it is supposed to be like. What have we ever celebrated in 35 years of my existence without you ? How can we celebrate Akash's birthday without you? Each minute of the planning was a burden I carried, imagining how different it would be if you were here with him. It was what both you and Akash wanted the most. To be here every year for his birthday. Right ? That was the plan. Right ? When the day of the party dawned, I was not sure I would make it through the day. But then out of no where, it rained. Like never before, it rained. We wondered if we should cancel, we went to the park and filled out the cancellation form. As we stepped out of the rec center into the park, I saw children running around in reckless abandon in the drizzle and I turned back and tore up the cancellation form, We had the party. The clouds were very much there. The rain was very much there. The heavens wept your tears. You were very much there. On a day when the odds of rain are impossibly low, the sun did not come out. And then it rained.

Thanks for coming to the party Appa. I love you too.