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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Random ramblings


Complete in themselves, when they come together they complete each other. Although it speaks a language of its own, there is no magic like when melody finds its words. Have you ever heard a song come on and just rejoiced or cried because you were singing it, but just that it didnt have the words and the tune ?

I missed her wedding because I was too far away. She in Bombay and I in California. But I was there in spirit and thought. I missed his birthday because he was too far away. He in his world and I in mine. Just a 5 minute walk really but too far away.

Exerpts from last weekends evening with college friends over wine.
Him : So Ragz, anyone special ?
Me : No
Him : Why not ?
Me : (Smile) Why don't you set me up with one of your cool rich Cisco friends ?
Him : (Smile) I can but you know (Pause)..No one matches up. I never feel anyone is good enough for my friends.
How sweet is that ??


They ask me if I know you.. what should I say ? That I knew you too well or that in the end I didnt know you at all ?
They ask why you are'nt here.. what should I say ? That I was too hurt to call you or that you were too angry to come ?
My face gives it all away.. Where do I hide ? Behind the lies that I loathe to know or the truth that I fear ?

Its not easy being a woman in this world is it ? We are forced to carry the sick burden of morality. Men put us on a pedestal simply because they know its hard being up there and so that they can comdemn us for every time we slip. While they get away by pleading inherent depravity.

If you are my dear friend, I will love you inspite of you. And sometimes I hate that.

Do ends justify the means ? Had this huge discussion recently. I believe more often than not it does. The chakravyuha can only be broken from within.

Its long-weekend starting tomorrow. Monday is off for Memorial day. Its going to be a long weekend.

coming back to the first point of this post, I have been listening to the same song on repeat almost all day now. From concept album maker Alan Parson's project "Eye in the Sky". Reflects my mood. Defiant. Thats how I am feeling.


7 Comments:

  • Do ends justify the means? -- CERTAINLY NOT!

    As for Women and Men -- You are yet to realize a lot Ragini. Men dont have it in them to put the women on any pedestal. They have only risen upto the realization of their strength, control and beauty and they worship them for that. Not just they, women themselves, as the ones who drive the societal norms, have set the same norms for the other women. Look for the most culturally strong societies, namely Bengalis -- the women are said to be the ones that drive the traditions there, and even they have set the same norms. Truth remains dear, no-one can wipe it out. The pedestal is beyond the reach of a man - he can not raise the women there. He only worships her. And those who don't abuse themselves. They are a shame and curse to themselves; just like the women who do jump down from there!

    -- Akshaya

    Originally @ May 28, 2005 01:59 PST

    By Anonymous Akshaya, at 4:26 PM  

  • 1.Ends and means. Its a never ending debate because it involves each ones personal concience and Right and wrong is so subjective in that sense.
    2. I will not argue your point about mena and women. We are after-all on opposite sides of the fence here. My thoughts are a reflection of my own experiences with the men I have met and by large they seem to get away with too many things the justification for which is " Men are like this only" and actually what is even more disgusting is when Women who are at the recieveing end of crap actually condone it. No offense, but U have to realize a lot too :) Some of which u may never because you are not a woman living in a man's world.

    Originally @ May 28, 2005 09:52 PST

    By Anonymous Who else !, at 4:26 PM  

  • 1. Ends cannot justify the means...no way. You can stand up and say that I put no weightage over the means and I'll say that its fair enough! But if you say that the end can justify the means, then you are terribly mistaken. The belief is not just a self-fooling effort, but also devoid of any sense.
    Camus has repeatedly mentioned his angush over this issue.
    -- Akshaya

    Originally @ May 31, 2005 04:23 PST

    By Anonymous Akshaya, at 4:27 PM  

  • 2. Men and women - I think your point is very valid. Just that what I tell you is not what I experience. I never make any such statements on the basis of individual experience. Its the truth of the world and even if none of us follow it, it remains unchanged. Ancient indian literature has underlined the same fact over and over again. I am only conveying it to you. Yes I am to realize a lot too, just as you pointed out. But even if we dont realize any of it, the truth won't change. Without arguing, I must tell you that I disapprove of the point that its a man's world. Its nobody's world. We are here to suffer. We join hands with each other in the heat of the sufferring. Men and women together, are capable of an emotion that takes us beyond the scope of sufferring. Those who complement each other are the only ahppy beings. If you remain busy in the conflict, you'll only multiply the intensity of the heat. Btw, I am feeling hot :)
    -- Akshaya

    Originally @ May 31, 2005 04:24 PST

    By Anonymous Akshaya, at 4:27 PM  

  • Hey R, let me know if you're in the vicinity

    Originally @ May 31, 2005 06:55 PST

    By Anonymous D., at 4:27 PM  

  • Akshaya : This discussion can go on forever so lets stop :) On these two points I guess we are from different school of thoughts. As Nietzche says " You have your way and I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way and the only way, it does not exist. " :-) Enjoy !!

    Originally @ May 31, 2005 08:22 PST

    By Anonymous Who else !, at 4:27 PM  

  • D : I will be in Ny sometime soon. I don't know when though. But if you are headed this way let me know :)

    Originally @ May 31, 2005 08:24 PST

    By Anonymous Who else !, at 4:28 PM  

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