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Tuesday, January 08, 2019

Chapter 18 - Home

I have been away from home 18 years now. I have found home in many places over the years, sometimes in the unlikeliest of places. I "set up" MY home in San Diego nearly a decade ago. Its strange how I leave home to go home to take a break - from a life that I made to a life that made me. I go home to space out, to be fed, to be nourished and nurtured, to be loved as I can only be loved there. I control nothing there, but I am home. Maybe that is why I am home.

I come back here to flop on my bed and feel like I am home. I look over at Coolboy and my monkeys pottering away, doing their thing, going about their day and it is the same feeling like I had when I was over there. This is the world of my creation, of my choices and the world I control ( somewhat). This is also home. Where they are themselves. In the house we picked together, put together, the life we cherish together. Yes, I am home.

I have left my heart to wander between these two worlds. Float away over the oceans. Make that long journey around earth. Someday, when I am nothing but ashes, look to the waves that kiss both lands. One of them will be me.


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