Sometimes I feel like I dont connect anymore. Like I am sitting by my window and smiling at all the people coming and going. Some stop for a chat others just breeze by. But I sit there and just watch. Like I am not part of the world that is passing me by.

Lazy sunday desires. Some people think I dont know how to bum around doing nothing. Maybe i dont. Spending an entire afternoon playing cards is doing nothing. Spending a solid 2 and a half hours to buy a pair of shoes is doing nothing. Making my room look perfect is doing nothing. Sitting in a coffee shop and catching up on all my reading is doing nothing. Ironing clothes and making that sunday brunch is doing nothing.

And a passerby takes me by the hand and makes me a part of the passing world for a bit. And then I come back to watching. From the otherside of the window.