Suddenly I see...

Its May. Its sunny on weekdays and cold every weekend that I step out. Such is my luck.

Its amazing how fast and how much my life has changed and still is changing and I am standing here powerless just trying hard to keep up. Some things you can plan all your freaking life but when it happens it just hits you hard and takes you by surprise. Lesson, you are never ready. How ever much you try. For somethings you are never ready.

Once again, the mad panic attack strikes. The thought of stagnating puts me in a frenzy. I am thinking too fast for my own good. What thens precede the what ifs and its all a big mess in my head. To add to it everything around me is moving so fast, I am dizzy.

Weekdays are a blur and weekends are spent doing way too much or fretting that I am doing nothing.

We are in such a tearing hurry to grow up and do big things that we forget the joys of being silly. Cool-boy and i spent the better part of our weekend being just that. We went out to one of my favourite restaurants for dinner. Giggled over an exchanged bill. Came home and opened a bottle of wine. Watched a old western flick, picked by him, and spent the better part of the night drinking wine and playing cards. I don't think I have been that relaxed since after the wedding. For the first time in a long time, I felt I was home.